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i found this picture that reads exactly what i have resolved in my heart concerning you.

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Answered prayer

To move on and forget about you has always been my daily prayer.

 it hurt me when I realized there’s no way I can be with you but I also know that

you cannot force someone to love you. The heart makes in my opinion 95% of the

Decision and the rest is left for the mind to add its voice to it. And so my journey

Of getting over you began. Amid countless tears that soak my pillow every night,

I fell asleep. Dreaming of you even in my sleep! It seemed as much as i tried to forget

You, the harder it got. And so without realizing it, I stopped trying. I delved myself into school

work and partying with friends. And then one day it hitted me when talking to you that

I was over you. I felt strange and disappointed. It’s weird right? But I did. I really did feel that way.

But with time, I was okay with it. I have achieved what I set out to do. I had wished many a times

That you will see me whilst I am still here, holding my heart out to you, but you never did. And

Surprisingly, I am okay. A new love beckons at me now, and I think I am ready to give it a try, and

 say goodbye to you and a love which never was

Time to say goodbye

You were my first love, and I don’t know why but first loves are always hard to forget. I miss you so much and there are a lot of questions I need answers to but I guess I will have to wait until I meet you in heaven. I have always wanted to forget you though I knew it will be difficult to do so, and it’s not because you caused me pain during our short time together but rather the memory of your demise is too painful whenever I remember you. Even after all these years, it still feels like it was just yesterday since you left.

I realized that I don’t have to forget you but rather I just have to learn to live with your memory. I guess there was no time for explanations or final goodbyes, or for me to ask if I loved you enough. I am here now wishing and wanting to talk to you, to see you smile again. That smile; that lights up your whole face. That infectious smile of yours that makes me smile to and warms my heart no matter the mood I am in. I never thought I will ever feel that again but I met someone who also makes me laugh and want to cry all in one breathe, but can never be compared to you.

I have a lot to tell you. There’s so much I didn’t tell you, I never thought I will lose you. No, at least not this cruel and mysterious way. But those words you will never hear. I kept it all inside, thinking I will have more time to tell you how much you mean to me and how much I loved you. We had so much in common. You were the first person who really understood me. I strived to be a better person and deal with the ‘demons’ I had when you met me because you believed in me. You saw something in me that I didn’t see in myself. You were always there, ready to love and support me even though I pushed you aside several times, but you understood what I was facing and you never left me.

It didn’t make sense for a long time to breathe or continue living after you were gone. I felt like it was a betrayal to you. I cried myself to sleep for several months but realized that no matter what happens life still goes on. No matter the hurt in our hearts, or the regrets of things we didn’t do or words we didn’t utter or voice out, and it hurts more than being pierced with a knife. It’s a kind of hurt I never experienced even when my father passed away.

I was sometimes impatient and insecure though I had no reason to. I made mistakes, I sometimes overreacted when there was no need for me to do that, I was also out of control and at times difficult to handle, but through it all you could handle me at my worst, and you sure deserved every bit of me at my best. I miss you, and it’s difficult to forget. But I ask myself, why it would not be difficult to forget you when you gave me so much to remember you for in our short time together.

As much as it hurts, I have to forget you and continue living. I know someday somebody will make me want to turn around and say goodbye to you. But I loved you. Oh man, I did love you. You contributed immensely to who I am today though you are not here to see. I have a weird feeling our story isn’t over, but it's time time however to say goodbye though you left without saying one.

24th JULY, 2012.

So I came home after a very tiring day, and since I was not able to watch the seven pm news, i decided to watch the 10:30pm news. This was not part of my plans but decided on it after Ghana Television decided not to o telecast the soap opera I was waiting to watch and the news was mostly about just departed and beloved president His Excellency Prof. John Evans Atta-Mills. May his soul rest in perfect peace, and in the bosom of our heavenly father.

Now back to why I started writing this piece in the first place. After a couple of news items on the public’s mourning of him, an item on the state of mood of his hometown, among others,  was shown of the presidential candidate of the New Patriotic Party’s flag bearer, Nana Akuffo Addo, I am not sure what question the journalist doing the interview asked, but he said his impression of the late president was that he was courteous, friendly, sorry but I have forgotten the rest since I watched it almost 2hrs ago and it is now 12am. But the thing is, whiles watching it, I felt he was being hypocritical, and I especially loathed him when a smile or should I say smudge appear briefly on his face as if in mocking when he said “I haven’t really seen him that much for the past year”, as if to say in unspoken words that what they the NPP have been drumming into the ears of Ghanaians that he (the late president) was sick is true. I did not believe for a second that he was being genuine. If you really know, and I am hammering on “really”, believe the man was all that why then all those slandering and insults? Or maybe that is just Ghanaian politics for you.

I must say however, that the ex-president John Agyekum Kuffuor’s gesture of calling on the new president His Excellency, John Dramani Mahama to express his condolence together with his brother and party executives and the help he offer the president and is advice to him was great and well needed in my opinion. He, like our departed president is a man of peace and integrity. Though it’s with a heavy heart that I write this, I know for sure that our practice of democracy as a nation is heading somewhere in spite of the few hitches we are having and this was shown by the immediate swearing in of the vice as the new head of state. Our neighbors’ Nigeria and Zambia recently did same with the passing of their heads of states, and so I guess I have to say African democracy is heading somewhere and the days of       will soon be forgotten.

In ending I say ‘Rest In Perfect Peace’ our dear departed President, Damirifa due!

To my potential lover

                                           

             Dear potential lover,

                         im glad to be writing you this letter because i can't wait to meet you. you will be the first person i will wake up to in the morning, the first to feel my feet rub against yours in the middle of the night. The first person i will share my feelings with and the first around whom i will be completely vulnerable. i will tell you most things about my thoughts and feelings, but will keep somethings within and you may feel frustrated with me. i will act strange and different at times and you would want to know what is going on but i won't tell you and its not because of anything you might have done. you should also know i will wake most mornings and not feel like talking and that's because im not a morning person, meaning, im not one who likes to make conversation in the morning.

                     You should also know you won't be the first one whose calls and texts i have waited endlessly  for and whose silence i have felt disappointment and sadness, and you won't be the first to hold my hand, caress my face or kiss me, the first person i've stayed up all night thinking and crying about. Neither will you be the first person i have loved but you will be the first to love me back, and believe it or not, this will be the first love letter i have written to anyone for myself though i have written several ones on behalf of friends. I want you to know even before we meet that i love you, and i know through our years together, you will always love me even when i look wretched sitting on the hall floor, or when im sad, won't open up to you, yell at you or when i fall part. i know forever is a long, long time but i won't mind spending it by your side because i get to wake up to you and to your dazzling smile.

                      I love you more each day because i know your eyes will see my beauty even at my ugliest

      times. I know you won’t be thinking of me every time but you will give me a part of you that

      you know I can break. I want you to know right now that I will yell at you when you make me

      mad and smile when you make me happy, and miss you when you aren’t around. I know you

     aren’t perfect, but I want you to know you are perfect for me, and I also want you to know

     there are somethings I will need to hear at certain times to feel better about a situation and they are; “im sorry” and “I miss you”.

                      

                    most importantly, i can't wait to shower you with all the love and affection bottled up me

                    inside of me waiting for someone i can waste it on. i can't wait to serve you breakfast in  

                    bed, go to the movies together, take walks, make sweet slow love to you in every part of our

                     home and under the evening moonlight. i can't wait to discover every inch of your manly

                     body and adorn it with my kisses and tears, and i also can't  for us to have our first argument

                     and fight, petty quarrels, shed my first tears for you, stay up all night thinking of you, or for   

                     me to feel jealous when i do something either to irritate or to put a smile on your face and

                      you tell me it reminds you of your ex.

                     i simply want to tell you with this endless word that im boring you with that I LOVE YOU and

                     i cannot wait to meet you.

                    Please do well to thank your ex on my behalf for letting you go because if she hadn’t, I

                    wouldn’t have had the hope of meeting you.

                     will be waiting patiently and preparing for your arrival. I love you more than you can ever

                      imagine possible.

From your potential lover.

Him and I

 I have a boyfriend. He's my best friend in the world, and if ever i loose him, a part of me will be lost too. We blend perfectly together. He is my special love, my confidant and my booster.He's never been my "boyfriend" but he's seen me through a few heartbreaks and problems.He's always been there, and he never judges or accuse me no matter the situation i find myself in and its not because he's my beloved for he corrects me when i do wrong. All his thoughts are for me only, all his happiness because of me but only until he finds his missing rib. Oh! how i dread when that day finally comes. His deep thoughts, clean and pure heart, his ever smiling face, his annoying and yet loving comments will all be directed to another.

People don't think we are really just friends and others think its strange we are not dating, but its perfect. He's never had his heart broken and that's because he's never dated. I'm the only real female friend he has. I want him to find and experience love if its only for a second.

 
I realised just how much i love him when a lady he was trying to woo hurt him. I was so angry with her that she's hurt my beloved, and felt sorry for her later because she doesn't  know what she has lost. I love him for who he is, for the mistakes hes ever made and even when hes being a  a pain in my ass.I loved the person he was when we first met, and the person grown to become now. I'm not in love with him but love him with everything in me.He's every gals fantasy. He's always willing to take away my loneliness without having to be in a relationship with me